movie day

ady 1 week passed since my semester break started..
time flies...
can you dun pass so fast...i miss staying at home...
i dun wan to go back...

yesterday went to ecm with frenz...
really din meet them for long time...
hmm...then i went for movie with chui teng...

harry potter 7 part 1...
indeed it was a nice movie...
somehow it was too long...
i think is about 2 and half hour...
i sit till backbone also pain liao la...
however...
it was so damn nice that it really so detail..
every single scene was so real...
i got some feeling like watching scary movie...haha...
worth it to see actually..
hmm...i think the second part will be longer...lol..
waiting for it...

i m thinking to go for a hair cut...
but when c dao the sun i suddenly feel so damn lazy..
aiyo...

still waiting other fren to be back...
i wanna go sing k...
i miss it!!!

27/11/10

i seem to be lazy and lazier to post something at here since i m back at home...
cause there was just nothing can be written...

recently...
my mood aint too good and aint too bad...
but it flung greatly...

cause i cant show my sadness to my family...
not hoping them to worry about me...
i must try to be independent...
cause mum and dad got many things more to worry about...

i m ady 20...
no longer a small child...
although they will still c me as their lovely girl...
i hope i can take care of myself and even take care of them too...

hmm...
recently just go yc with sl,ty and kq...
suddenly i feel that...
hmm...everyone change..even myself...
especially we are in different places...
the things that we see..listen...and feel are so so so not same...
it makes us seem that we are more further apart...

anyway...this two days quite boring..
cause many frenz still not here...
waiting for them to come back now...
miss u all ya!!!

1st day at ktn

hmm...back to hauz ady 1 day liao...
2day is a very boring day...
cause i just stay at hauz din go anywhr else...

many of my fren were not at ktn yet..
so i dun have anywhr to hang out...
tink i gonna fat mou at hauz for few more days lu...

anyway..
all my stuff are being put aside after i came back...
i m so lazy to unpack all of them although i m so free!!
wow...

i m gonna start my movie and drama days after this i think...
if not i sure sien die...

food at hauz is always the best...
so delicious n without ajinomoto..
i enjoy eating them so much!!!

hmm...gonna find program liao...
till then...

freedom for me!!

finally i left my college...
left my uni...
to start my semester break..haha...
so happy...

i m now still at kl...
staying in uncle hauz since saturday...
parents just come over yesterday night...
so i m leaving to the place i miss so much later...
wuhu...

kuantan...
i m coming back for you!!!
i gonna hang out all over you during my break...
i miss alot of food there...
time to gain weight again...
SHIT!!!

m going to stay at kuantan until early jan...
hope can meet everyone i miss...

btw...in the middle of dec i might away to go to kedah...
for wedding dinner...
there is two somemore..
wondering what m i going to wear...
now gotta start to think liao...
fan!!

this two day at uncle hauz...
finally i eat dao proper chinese food rather than the food i ate in cafe...
they were so so so much delicious that ever...
haha...

upm....
dun let me think you in this break...
m going to c u next semester...
tata...

end of Y1S1

seriously...
i m done with my first semester ady...
hmm...dun talk about the paper i had...

but now i m superb happy cause i m leaving uni in few hours time...
not that i hate here so much...
just dun feel like staying here ady even just for 1 hour more...
cause it is so suffering staying alone here...
whole bunch of housework that i usually din do in home i had to do it here...
i wanna relax...
i miss my bed...
and my doggie--niko!!!
i din see him for like..hmm...since the day i enter here...
so sad...

considered finished packing with all my stuff...
just a little bit touch up wen uncle gonna come fetch me...
now just relaxing and online...
try to used up the available credit hours for my internet...
lolxx..i was just joking..

curiously...i dun have a little bit of feeling to get a nap now even i cant sleep well ytd nite...
know wad...
i only managed to get myself into deep sleep at 3am i guess...
really sot liao...
luckily today i still can get up for my exam without having headache...

lata fren are going to have a party session...
being able to join them a little while before i move my ass out of uni...
thx for them that purposely switch the time of the party just to suit me before i goes off...
seriously gonna miss them in this holiday cause not able to meet them...

kuantan...i m coming back to you soon!!!

food poison day T.T

holy shit!!!
whole day having my stomach uncomfortable and keep going to toilet..
i think i m food poisoned ady..

but too bad i duno wad that make til me like this...
very kesian wan lo...
cause i need to run all the way to toilet from my room...
it was darn far lo u know?

a bad day for me cause cant even study!!!
i think i gonna present away my 40 mark for physics paper...
cause just back to room from toilet then go again!!

too bad is today the whole uni like a died city lidat...
nothing open...even my cafe and our medical centre...
cant even get medication...
luckily the koperasi is still open and i can get some 100plus...
stand on myself lo...
who ask i m on my own here...

hmm..roomates all home ady...
lefting me alone in the room to suffer for 3 more days...
waiting exam on the 20th...
uncle is coming over to fetch me to his house on the 20th also...
wuhu...

faster reach la 20th...
u know how many ppl are hoping for your arrival mar?
cause 20th is the end for my first semester...
yeah!!

16/11/2010-jogoya

well...i m still now left one more last paper for my final...
it is physics!!!
but aint i m studying for it during this few day...
in-progressing at all...
cause my study mood is all out since the day i finished my chemistry paper...

now holiday mood is switching on inside me...
whole day staying in my room just stick myself to the computer...
letting myself so relaxing...
haha...

is all the fault of uni to not put all my paper in a row...
so i can finish it earlier and back to my house or even dun let myself regret for not studying after i sat for the physics exam...
right?
they should have think beyond us...

i was crapping all over...
lolxx...

anyway...
2day spend my whole day walking outside instead sitting and sticking to my computer...
went for jogoya with my coursemate...
cause there was a promotion for ladies where 50% discount is given...
so it was superb cheap and thus we went...

hmm...there is quite a number of different style food to be choose...
but we just cant help to stuck all of them in our stomach...
cause we were damn full ady...
some of the food are delicious...
the most i prefer is the little steamboat..
i wish to eat it again now...

then went for a short walk in sungai wang...
but i wad also din buy dao...
cause really no shopping mood without my mum beside me...

overall..today d journey is quite safe and smooth...
cause we din spend much time waiting for the ktm and monorail...

so it was the last outing together with my coursemates for this semester i think...
too bad eva cant join us cause of sickness she had...
gonna miss them during my semester break...
lolxx...

but i m going out with another batch of best friends in my hometown when i back...
cause i miss them very long ady since we started our uni life...
sure gonna hang out with them!!
wait for me!!!

year 1 semester 1

is such a lovely sunday today..
cause i dunid to wake early for any activities...
wuhu...

anyway..
today is the last sunday i m writing my blog in upm for this semester...
cause my home sweet home dy waiting me to be back on next week...
haha...
i m so happy...
back to a place i noe since i was born...
all of my friends ady waiting for me at there liao...
wanna go hang out with them...

conclusion for this semester...
hmm...
overall it go on quite well...
but maybe i m still new in uni...
so at first i got some weird feeling to be here alone...
the ways for studying is totally different when i m in secondary school...
so i think i gonna suit myself faster...

besides the studying..
my life here was totally different also...
need to make new friends all over again and learn how to live with roomates that ii duno them before...
good to say...everything went well actually...
just maybe we r still new to each other...
so sometime just make me feel like i m alone...
i still need time to make myself use to this things...
cause it was very different with how my friends at hometown usually treat me!!

anyway...
next semester maybe i gonna move out from this hostel...
going back to the hostel i suppose to be...
but really hope this wont happen cause i ady use to my life at here...
i dont want to seperate with my roomates..
they are so good...

hmm...
not gonna say so much ady...
cause most of the story i ady post it up earlier on...
this is just a overall feeling for me for year 1 semester 1 in upm...
god bless me...
next semester will be a better semester...

一个人

宅女。。。
刚才我的朋友这样叫我。。。
哈哈。。

突然发觉最近的我真的很宅。。。
就连吃饭时间都是打包打包打包！！
甚至懒惰踏出房门一步。。
到底发生了什么事？

我变得自闭了吗？
我想与世隔绝吗？

其实都不是吧。。
只是很不想离开我的房间。。
外面很热。。太阳很晒。。。
而且吃东西的地方还有猫。。。
我不能接受。。。

虽然时常一个人对着电脑吃饭。。。
看上去有些孤单。。。
但我却不如此觉得。。。

一个人时让我想很多事情。。。
一个人时让我了解更多我自己。。。

以前的我从来都不曾自己单独做任何事。。。
 我觉得一个人好像很可怜。。。
但现在不会了。。。
其实当全世界只剩你一个时。。。
自己一个也没什么大不了。。。

我依然可以很正常的生活。。。
我还是能微笑。。。
而且是真心的微笑。。。

我厌倦了在面对不同的人要给予不同的表情。。。
甚至有时做我不是很想做的事情。。。

坦白说。。。
这些假假的表情。。
从我上中六开始已经很少有了。。。
因为从那时我已经明白。。。
我不是为了别人而活的。。。
我不再需要做他人的影子。。。
我可以把自己的角色演绎出来。。。


所以现在开始。。
我要努力过好自己的生活。。
这样才对得起每一个爱我的人。。。

闷闷的心情

又开始下雨了。。
心情好闷哦！！
是不是每次心情不好时就会酱应景？？

我觉得我做错选择了。。
好像不应该把心里所想告诉他吧。。。
其实当时想要说出来只是为了让彼此了解原来有酱的东西存在。。。
但却让他感到压力了。。

我有点后悔。。
我不是想要求他什么。。
因为我知道我也有责任。。。

但我觉得好失败。。。
不但目的没达到。。
反而还害了他。。。
搞到大家现在都不开心。。。

是不是我太自私了？
一直是单方面在想问题。。
从来没顾过他的感受。。。

我真的不想这样了。。。
两个人在一起不是甜甜蜜蜜。。
而是热脸贴冷屁股。。。
真的很伤心。。。
好几次都让我觉得很难呼吸。。。
就连昨晚也是这样。。
只是上几次他都在我身旁。。。
昨晚只有我自己在房间里。。。
真的很辛苦。。。

对不起。。。
我不够称职！！

ki siao liao @.@

first paper finally gao dim...
hmm..nothing much to say...
but the uni really wan us die lidat...
all ppl come out also say duno got wad can write...

hey man..come on la...
suddenly change the format really suck liao lo...
still come out this type ques...
mou ngan tai la  me...

anyway...
over jiu over ady...
i din feel sad bout it!!!
cause i wat it end faster...
countdown countdown countdown!!! till my semester break start...

gambateh everyone!!!
4 more papers to go...
and 12 more days to be here!!! yeah^^

omg!

oh gosh!!! just now i wanted to post something here...
but due to the network prob...
the whole long post is gone!!!!
hate la...

haiz...
bo mood liao...
dun want to type back liao...
next time ny update my feeling la...

anyway...
gambateh o everyone!!!
exam countdiwn-ing...
25 hours more to go...
jia you!!^^

伤害

太久没在这里写上我的心情了。。

其实有时真的不想吃醋。。

也不是想想太多。。。

只是真的让我面对时。。

真的不由得我来说。。

已经强逼自己尽量不去听。。

但还是不断徘徊在我脑海里。。。

我真的不应该那么小气。。。

因为从以前这一切的想法都是我说出来的。。。

是我说过的。。

‘只要你知道我爱你就可以了，难道你要我的生活里只有你吗？你不能让我去参我的朋友吗？’

当时的我说的那么轻松。。那么的肯定。。。

完全否定了他的感受。。。

现在让我亲身体验时。。才知道当时的他是怎样的辛苦在做到的。。

甚至有时他做不到时，我还说他为什么酱的。。。

原来是我自己不明白当中的痛苦。。。

有时真的在想。。我以前是否太过分了。。

我很自私。。从来只有想到我要怎样。。

他的感受都没顾虑。。他是怎样熬过来的？

想说对不起。。但我觉得也没用了。。。

因为已经造成了伤害。。虽然他现在没事。。

可是发生过的事终究发生了。。。

被伤害过的永远都会留下疤痕。。。

我真的应该好好补偿他。。。

一切一切我对他造成的伤害。。。

也许现在算是我的报应。。 

之前他所承受的。。。

我想我现在也应该体验一下。。

再像他一样。。

学习如何在这一切难受中好起来。。。

shit lecturer!!

nowadays it is like so difficult to let me log in to my blog la...
the line is so suck till everytime when i got feel to post something here also cant...

not to say that disappointing matter...
well...now i m still in my study week...
my final exam is just around the corner now...
roughly about 5 more days...

wonder how i gonna suffer for this time geh exam...
all the format change into essay type rather than previous geh objective type...
i was like wanna die liao when i studying...
too long din study those like sejarah type things and some more this time need to be in essay format...
duno wad i will write out on that day...

really big pressure la!!!

1 more serious i found out is that my stupid kenegaraan lecturer...
i really hate him la...
he gave my assignment mark so damn low leh!!
19 out of 30...
when i check it out i was like OMG!!!!
how can he did like this...
he purposely want us die izit?
other lecturers gave their mark so kind...
lowest also will get 25 and above if out of 30...
dun understand y he so cruel want!!!

really choose dao the wrong lecturer liao...
next year gonna ask my junior dun choose dao him...
if not sure die straight straight!!!!

me really give him gek dao liao lo!!!
haiz...so disappointed...
my kenegaraan this time duno want how die tim...

wish me luck ba everyone!!!