faith

yesterday nite i cnt slep d whole nite...
i tink bout many things...

in fact..
i m the people that cnt gv any help to ppl...
i just bring about trouble to ppl...

now dun even got any one going to choi me anymore i think...
even my closest wan...
mayb this is my faith...

did u all c before ppl that cry without tears?
hmm...i m the one...
mayb i just had cried to many times till there is no more tears excreting out..
my heart is bleeding and is half dead...

haha...is a funny things right??

eveyone..
when i really told u all that i m fine...
plz noticed that i m not...
i had hurt badly and i just act strong in front of ppl...

perhaps there wont b anyone noticing that...

can anyone make my heart alive again???

targetless

no target d day...
haiz..

today wake up finally noticed that i dun have a target for today...
cause i dun have tinz to do at all...
my muve dy watch finish...
now just left online to let me pass my day on...

when still studying..i m so oughtful to have a long holiday...
but now this long holiday really drag me crazy....

people is always so greedy...
they forever wont satisfied what they have...
i tink i m the someone that is greedy also...

suck day!!!

really duno what day is today..
i hate it!!!!

today my mood really damn suck...
cause sum din say reason d ppl...
owiz say liao tinz din fulfill it wan...
really duno y got lidat d ppl...

I HATE A!!!

drunken marathon

hmm..i m so boring leh..
today til now oso duno got wad can do besides watch novie and online...
anyone got wad plan bor???
faster come lao me leh...

lol..yesterday i went for a st john duty..
is a half marathon for the hashman...
but very early i dy nid wake up liao...
then go there to prepare for the registration...
this time the marathon is named 'druken marathon'..
that mean those hashman need to drink one can of beer at each of the check point..

hmm..kinda interesting right??

there is a total of 4 checkpoint...
but my duty is quite easy..
there is station at the starting and ending point...
my duty is just to check their blood pressure and record their time ny..
the marathon ended after 3 and a half hour...
so later we went for d prize giving ceremony at curry house o...
have sum food there...
and i really see many thing and experience how those hashman look like for the 1st time..
truely saying..i m kinda shock...
cause some of them really very hash o...
but v just din put in heart lu...

after that...d duty is over and i jiu back house for a good sleep lo..
hehe..

my holiday trip

hmm...
talked bout my holiday trip ba..

i went back to kedah straight after my stpm...
is kinda rushing cause i need to attend a wedding ceremony the next day...
is my cousin brother d wedding...
so went i reach dere the ceremony jiu start liao..
then at night there is the wedding dinner...
there is no time for me to rest also..

then after the dinner i finally got 1 whole day to rest before i went to hat yai...

hmm...at hat yai..
wow..i really enjoy it cause there is so many things to buy...
and is cheap...

wen i reach there i went to a island called 'pu ti island'..
is damn nice cause got damn many thing to see...
but 1 thing bad is v need to reach the island by boat and is very hot...
then after having our lunch then v went to the water market...
hmm...there had so many thing to buy leh..
food..clothes..souvenirs...wow..is wonderful...

after finishing all our shopping then v went to our hotel to settle down awhile before we go shopping at those shop near hotel..haha...
indeed..v play til quite late..

then the next day v went to a chinese temple...
after that we went to a beach and take phot with the mermaid statue there...
later...we went shopping again at the plaza...wow...i really did bought so many thing this time...
after shopping it seem that our 2 days 1 night trip ended happily...

then we got our way back to kedah and i left for kl the next morning...
hmm..i went shopping again during at kl...haha...
this time really shop til i want sot liao...
besides that...i also watch 2 movies at kl...
1 is 'storm warriors' and 1 is 'avatar'...
'storm warrior'..
i do not have much comment on that cause is just some usual fighting movie..
myself like 'avatar' damn much...
is damn damn damn nice leh...
the character and the scene all were very special...
i m sure going to watch the 2nd time if i got the time..
haha...

then...
this is the end of my trip lo...
haha..
i did enjoy very much!!!

i m bek in ktn!!!

hmm...everyone..
finally i m bek in ktn...

lol...these days i been to so many places...
i went to kedah,thailand and kl...
and i really have lots of fun there..
wuhu...
is such a wonderful trip especially is after my stpm...

now...
i m officially free liao..
and will till end of this month nia...
cause is going to start working during january o...
so if got any plan can find me o..

about the detail of my trip, i will update it later o...
cause now wan go update fb liao...

stpm finish liao!!!!

hohoho!!!
finally my stpm finiz liao...
n i m officially end my form 6 life liao...
feel so wonderful...

just bek frm singing karaoke with my geng of frenz...
guess we had a wonderful time just now...
playing n chatting alot...
duno wen will got this chance again leh???

anyway...2 hour more i m leaving to kedah liao...
rili such a rush today cause i stil din have fun enough with all my dear frenz yet...
nvm ba..
wait i come bek sin ny cont...
haha...

hope everyone that i love have a great time start from now o!!!

relationship 2

act got sumtinz i rili not understand...

y sum relationship can change so drastically in such a short time???

do ppl appreciate their relationship with other ppl??
or they just think sumtinz that is belongs to them just wont lost...
many ppl just know the importance to appreciate sumtinz after they have lost it...
y need so san fu??

y dun they just appreciate when they still own it??
at least they dun need to feel sad...

hope everyone can good good appreciate the ppl around you o...
dun wait lost liao ny regret...

is sunday again...

is sunday again...
after today there is still 4 more days left til my holiday started!!!
wuhu...
rili cnt wait for it...

i told myself...
i wan let myself relax totally...
i wan to have fun!!!!
yippie...

lata at night goin to relative wedding dinner at tanjung...
duno how the situation at there oso...
cause i din been to there for dinner b4..
just noe that the hall is big...

awhile more nid to go bath liao...
now go fb 1st lu...
tata...

new myvi

lol...mummy buy d new myvi finally come liao...
haha...
so happy..
cause got new car to drive...

CCM 7787...
d new myvi d number plate...
erm..d number is same with my dad laz time d old car leh..
so ngam...
seem the number so got yuan fen with us..
lolx..

this whole morning also driving the car...
go here and there..
now drive til me sien liao...
haha...
so now come on9 and write my blog..hoho..


hmm...
now still left all objective paper for my exam liao..
and my stpm going to end very soon...
so suang..
after that then i sure will play til crazy wan..
lolx..

waiting for that day!!!

badly did paper...

2day finally finish all my heavy paper...
is sumtinz relax..
but i felt damn moody today..

cause i did so badly in my math paper...
is the most confidence subject for me leh...
but i cnt even get all the quez done..
i cnt figure out wad the quez wan..
haiz..
i rili duno la..

mayb is i over confidence to it liao...
now i get it...
hope i still can get a good result for that...
cause is a bog hope for me and even my parents...

truely saying...
i m rili rili stressed although other cant see...
cause i kept all my stress deeply in heart...

evyone can c how i smile and joke..
can anyone noticed that i m depressed and sad inside my heart???
do anyone do???

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anyway...
just noticed that there is sumtinz sad happened to one of my fren..
tink wan to ask for detail but i sked i talk dao dose sad tinz...
so..
hope my fren can get off of the sadness very soon...
2ml is still waiting brightly for evyone...

i need determination

hmm...anytinz for me to do 2day???
i m so sien leh...
although i stil got exam to go on...
but i dun hv the determination to exam leh...

perhaps this is a tinz that not good oso when exam not goin on evyday...
i only wil start to study during the laz min...
erm...i noe i shud not do that but just feel sleepy when not yet the critical time...

haiz...mayb i just shud change my this attitude liao la...
if not nxt time go study further i sure die til straight wan...

hey..faster go study la...
if not later burn midnite oil again...

halfway til stpm end!!

hooray!!!
half of my stpm papers finish liao finally...
now stil got halfway to go...

lol...this few day d exam rili make me wanna crazy liao..
now tink wanna have a good good rest before i get prepared 4 my rest of the papers...

erm...bout the exam..
i dun have much to comment lo act..
cause i duno wan to say what...
just it is over liao dn jiu suan lo...
all the tinz will be revealed during the time when the result come out...

lol...now the 1st tinz i do afta bek is on9 type this blog and fb-ing...
wuhuu...

cont gambateh ya all my frenz...
soon it wil b our day dy!!!
jia you!!

1st paper finished!!

finiz my 1st paper n now i ny left 7 papers to go..
hooray!!

after i finiz 3 more papers in this coming week dn i wil be free for awile liao finally..
and it also mean that half of my papers dy finish...
cnt wait for it to reach leh..

laz thurs i have a paper on bio...
the paper act is not very diff..
just it rili nid lots of understanding of us bout the subject...
erm..but i dun wan put so big hope on it..
i sked lata i get dissapointed more...

now heading for the three more subject coming soon..
jia you la!!!

is stpm liao..

my stpm start 2ml...
lol...it is my final exam in my high skul life..
and all my future depend on this exam..

it seem so damn impt..
haiz..

gt feel sked lo anyway...
cnt tink 2ml d situation is how wan..
very worry my brain is blank when i m facing the paper..
but hope won la...
i will try to calkm down..

anyway..
wana wish all my dear frenz goog luck and all the best in exam!!!

ansd i m waiting for 10/12/09...
cause i wil gone crazy dat day..
haha...

one week left!!!

countdown frm now!!!

is only one week til stpm dy...
haiz...
seem running out of time liao..
but wad i had study b4 just like gone like this frm my mind..

cham liao la this time...
just couldnt imagine how i m going to sit for my 1st paper...

n zui jin weather kip changing..
i oso couldnt have a gud slep..
just kip not feeling well..
mayb my tension just too big..
cause all my frenz are so damn geng la..
n teacher seem got big hope...
sumore my parents oso...

help me a!!!

hate flu!!!

arghh...is bad!!!
flu get on me again!!
hate flu a!!

so san fu wen i get flu...
kip sneezing ny...
make my nose damn pain a...
T.T

haiz...but is sure i will get flu cause this few day the weather kip weird2..
and kip raining...
sumore ytd mayb go out time kena dao rain..
so it come!!!!

haiz...
sad sad la...
dun wan flu!!!

whats wrong with me??

haiz...
rili duno wad happen this few day..
everytinz just seem go d wrg way..

i m kinda not happy about this..
n i not really feeling well also this few day...
but i duno what wrong with myself also..
seem sick but reality nope...

mum kip ask me go consult doctor..
but i rejected it..
cause i really sked the moment that wan see doctor..
cause i m kinda lut..
duno later check liao then will face wad result...

admit that i m so pengecut...
no doubt..
haiz..
just wish that everything can just be fix bek very very soon...
praying for that!!^^

moody

recently duno y...
just feel life getting more and more bore and dull...
my schedule of the day just unchanged...
and i dun even have any other entertainment besides on9 and fb-ing....

this few day kinda no mood..
duno y..
and i feel myself getting useless...
just i had changed from what i used to be last time...
mayb i just feel wanna settle down quietly..

and there is this someone that i really care about..
no matter how his mood flung..
i just wish i could beside him always and share..
but most of the time i just cnt make it..
act i m kinda blame myself evytime when i couldnt make it..
he is really very important to me...
even i am scare to listen the word 'break up' and i sure will cry for the word..
i just duno y..
this is what that din happened to me although i dy 19 yrs old..
last time i just watch this thing very normally..
and i think that break up ma break up lo..
not big deal..
no bf still got frenz mar..
i won sad want...
but now..that is no way for me to look this word calmly dy...

maybe..
life just changed silently..
and i just suit myself to the situation oso...





p/s: i m so so so damn miss him now!!!!
but he is still sleeping =.=

hate!!

hate la!!!
rili not understand y this world got such person...
make me damn wana skol bad word!!!

u r too self-centered...
noe what..
this world is not for u alone..

i m sure u will regret one day!!!

my 19th birthday's present

finally i get all my birthday present after waiting for so long...
erm..but some i din take dao la..
cause kinda lazi liao to take liao...
haha...


doggie from him..i named him niko....


this also from him..


from jin and dear frenz...


bag from jin and others..


cupss...and i love the card so much...^^


present from sis's frenz..

one more month left...

aiyo..time passes so fast leh..
my stpm coming soon..

noe wad..zui jin i feel so no motivation to go skul leh..
haiz..i so gonna bcm d ponteng queen liao..
wenever there is any chance...
i wil tink of ponteng instead of other tinz else..
just feel so wanna stay at hauz and get myself a good study time...

stpm rili a phobia to me and my frenz now..
wenever heard there is one month left..
everyone will just like gone mad liao...
haiz..
wat to do...
is our destiny to face this exam...

gambateh ba all my frenz!!!!

hate!!! dam damn hate!!!

hate!!!
y everything just like gone hier wire...
i hate this type of feeling!!!

i din even treat anyone before like this...
y??
i get this type of treatment...
unfair!!!

i m damn damn damn sad n moody bout it...
it drag my feeling since yesterday evening till now!!!!
hate hate hate!!!

y shud i bcm so good???
y i m so stupid???

what had happened to me???
i m not like that want!!!!

i hate this kind of life!!!!!
i really really hate!!!!!
no one have the right to treat me like that!!!

i hate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy 19th birthday to me!!!

finally i turn 19 by today...
old one year again...
lol..
cham lo..
1 more year then my age will be started with number 2 liao...
cnt imagine how is it...

a birthday song for me 1st...

{ happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to me...
happy birthday to LiyU....
happy birthday to me!!! }

lol....

today i din go school o..
cause lazy...
then go out sushi king wit my gang since now got promotion oso...
so shuang and happy...
lol...
now how many plates that we ate??
almost 30 leh..full dao...
then so damn cheap..
ny RM64 nia...
so guo yin...

anyway..
thx all my frenz that wishes me happy birthday...
and also those who pui me go sushi king wan..
sumore the one that pui me countdown my birthday...
love u all so much n thx!!!

btw..pic for my birthday present will be update later la..
stay tuned o!!!

last day being 18 years old

2 more hours left then 13/10/09 gonna past dy..
then 14/10/09 will come..
it mean that is my 19th birthday dy lo..

so today is the last day i being a 18 years old girl...
after this 2 hours i will old 1 more year...
become 19 years old liao..

while being 18...
i really experience many different things...
happy..sad...moody...
what also got..
and i being 18...
also let me see clearly something...
this let me grow up so much suddenly..
and i told myself i will be more clever next time...
i just wont be so soft and easy being bully liao..

being 18..
i didnt regret for it...
cause i really have many fun time with my gang as they let me experience many new thing also..
but for something..
i just can say let it be ba...
i will just go on life like this..
it wont make any difference geh...

lol..
nid start to countdown liao...
1 hour and 45 minutes sumore...
hehe^^

so called birthday party

on 10/10/09..
i held a bbq party in my hauz...
this is so called a birthday party for me and my brother..
10/10 is act my brother birthday and mine is on 14/10..
but cause 10/10 is saturday then we decided to held on that day..

the main purpose for me to held this party is cause this is my last year in school liao..
so just want to have a chance to play2 with all my frenz besides celebrating birthday..

lol..it is rili a busy day that day..
sumore i still got tuition..
so i was just like rushing for this and that..
wow..
rili like sa po leh i that day..

but it was a success la..
n i manage to prepare all thing all just on time..
amyway i nid to thx few of my frenz that help me so much..
thx ya ang,hui ling,jin,cat,yipo n qian!!!
i luv u all so much leh...
especially cat..although u at nite cnt come but u stil help me to prepare leong fun..
heart u so much^^

that nite i rili have fun bbq n chatting wit all my frenz..
and surprised is that quek told me he wont b bek..
but he suddenly appeared..
shock mi..
thx for coming o...

i rili have a great time that night..
thx all my dear frenz leh!!!^^


jin say like smile face o!!


preparing..


setting bbq fire..


our cake!!


lol..c my cousin bro..help us blow candle tim!!


making 'cincalok'..


while rain time...


one 'suk' and one not 'suk..


fish that they make...


me and dear frenz!!

ponteng life again...

today din go skul again...
but i did quite a number of task...

cause 2ml my hauz wil be helding a party..
so i make guai ning go lo..

erm..quite success la..
very nice geh..
but cnt eat nw..
nid wait 2ml night..

so happy heard from chang yi that he is bek in ktn liao..
and also sin mun that having sem break now..
so long din play sot sot with them liao...
2ml sure must grab the chance..
but quite dissapointed cause quek cnt make his journey bek due to got thing do at his college..
nvm then..he promise to buy me present then can dy..
( lol..i just jking geh act...)

hope 2ml will have good weather la..
cause wanna bbq o...
hehe^^





p/s: miss him...

fun

sien sien sien!!!

lol..
2ml gonna ponteng again..
study now is the only meaning of life for me now..

2day all the girls in our class including me were so wu liao leh..
so v plan to take funny pic and keep as memory since v gonna be apart soon..
wow..
we made plenty pose leh..
is kinda fun and funny..

but ny can take awile cause nid to go down for class leh..
so sou heng..
v oso decided to take again o if gt chance..
sure will be interesting!!

lol..
all the pic is in cat de camera..
mayb wait her upload liao i ny post here la...
hehe..

btw..
2ml goin breakfast wit cat again o..
cause this become my ponteng time de life liao..
hehe..

pen off lu..
tata..

talk to exam..

study study study!!!!
now my world is full of this ny..
wana bored die me liao la!!!
when i can end this type of life??
is really suffering leh...

exam exam...
i m so sked of u leh...
wish u come faster and end earlier...
but wish u forever dun come oso...

lol..
i tink i wana sot liao la...

STPM!!!
u r ruin my life leh!!!

i wan my normal relax life back...
sumtime can hang out wit frenz without worrying not enuf time to study...
do what i wish to do..
and not just only in front books and papers...

sigh~~~

mooncake festival

ytd nite is mooncake festival and i had a quite fun nite..

my uncle family suddenly come down from kl without telling us..
say want give us surprise..
is really surprise..

we went to tc..
wow..so many ppl at dere leh..
all have diff grp and make out diff pattern using the sand and candle..
so nice..

i oso make many tinz leh..
then take quite many photo..

sumore not to forget..
uncle dm buy a cake frm BR give me and my brother leh..
say want celebrate with us earlier since they maybe cnt come down during my bday..
so surprise and happy...
thx ya u all..


mummy and daddy


me with the love i make...


me with mummy..


the love i make...


volcano that cousin n bro make..


the first love i make...but awhile jiu give wind blow off liao..


erm...not really noe what is this..we make oso..

busy

wad a busy day 2day...
now i just can relax nia..
lol...tired dao..

nw evy1 is busy to take their koko mark..
lol..since i m SU..
have to help them record all the attendance...
as wad i can tel..
i try my best to give all the attendance..
but sum really whole year din even come once wan..
paiseh la..
i cnt help too much..if not it seem not fair to other..

2ml i m not going to skul again..
cause i have no transport bek hauz..
n i just enjoy to study at hauz...

tired!!

ponteng agin...

today i ponteng again..
just like the feeling to be at hauz...
din feel so stress just like at skul..
dunhv d annoying sound of sum teacher...
feell so shuang..
haha..

ngam2 just bek frm breakfast wit catherine...
v chat a lot...
bout everything..
long time dun hv such chance liao...
cause v both hv our tinz to busy o...

now come on9..
then later gonna start my study liao..
exam coming soon...
bout 50 days...

smile

erm..i ntg dy..
just now have a long talk with him...
finally settle all the things...
now nothing dy..

i can smile liao...
^^

sad

sad...
today is really a bad day...

d feeling is so hurting...
my heart is pain...
very very pain..

now i realised what m i...
maybe i just put too much hope...

crying..
but this just cannot cure anything...
my heart is broken...

holiday ended

2molo skul gonna reopen liao..
again so fast the holiday ended...
haiz...
happy moment really flies...

this holiday is really so fun and a quite relax holiday for me..
since i do not have any exam right after the holiday..
haha..
so i can have fun..
and also i dont have any tuition aint like my previous the holiday..
everyday spend 4 hours for tuition..

lol..
my next holiday is after my stpm exam o..
it will be a damn long holiday for me then..
so now skul reopen liao..
i need to start focus on my study dy..
gambateh for my STPM!!!^^

relative wedding

sien sien d day...
wake up not long dy then jiu need go relative hauz liao..
cause got wedding ceremony there...
boring dao si leh..
cause mainly the ppl i duno want..
n sumore is uncle and auntie those...
then no leng zai oso...

sit there and wait my dad them chat and gather cause they long time din do that dy...
finally now i am at hauz dy...

lol...rili boring...
so i sit there and press fon nia..

lata at nite still got wedding dinner at mexica..
and sure will c ang again...
haha...
cause he is wrking there..
know what..
yesterday nite i go ecm dy c hm leh..
even my mum oso say y evytime she go ecm oso will c dao ang want..
haha..
i speechless...

yum cha

lol...my raya holiday still left 3 days nia...
cham dy..
i seem like many things din do dao yet o..
T.T
cham lu..

just now went yum cha with my frenz at ap old town o...
so long din see them liao...
miss them..
now oso raya holiday for them...
haha..

lol..
we chat so much..
finally get to update many information about their life now since dy long time i din gud gud chat with them..

finally..
cause is time for jin jin tuition so we ended our yum cha session...

hope v can gather again soon^^
and hope to see more ppl o!!!

i m sorry

maybe i m the one who always din think bout ppl..
i just keep on hurt dao ppl especially the one that i damn care and love...
sumtime i just will get rid all my worst feeling on otherin order for me to feel better without thinking what ppl feeling is all about..

after yesterday i only know how big hurt that i did to him..
i really didnt mean to hurt him..
cause that time i m in a bad mood..
i m so desperate..
so i did sumtinz that i till now oso cnt really forgive myself..
i m so stupid...

but i already did it..
what i can do now is just say sorry..
i noe that wont be enough to cure his wound...
i damn angry myself!!!

i think is time for me to change liao..
if not i will sure lost thing that i cannot afford to lose..
i dont wish there will be this day to come...

pulau redang trip

lol...i m bek!!!
so fun leh my redang trip...
haha...

at there..
i go for snorkeling two times leh..
see mani nice2 fish...
but i din post up those photo cause i take it using my uncle camera..
can imagine not..
those fish and coral just in front off u...
the fish swimming here and there...
and the coral swaying here and there at the bottom of the sea..
but one thing..
the sea water is really saltly...
make dao my lips so damn pain leh..

then i get the chance to go for canoeing..
so damn fun...
but quite tiring le...cause the canoeing thing is so heavy..
and the sea got wave sumore...
haha..

then i got go to the more more tea inn oso..
take quite mani pic there...

lol...
but one thing sad leh..
i bcm black liao...
haiz...
duno when ny can white back tim..
but i din sunburn la...
luckily...

hope to go again next time...
cause is really fun!!!^^

hoping^^

lol...after today then i wil gt few day won on9 o..
cause 2ml i m leaving to pulau redang lo..
finally i can have a good holiday after evytime busy tuition during holiday...
so i can relax for few day dy..
come back ny i cont 2 study bek...

this time redang trip leh go with all my family wan..
sumore got my uncle them..

hope i can have a good trip la!!

c u al after i back from redang o^^

happy hapy

kinda happy day..
cause sumtinz dat i fan so long finally solved liao..

sumtime it is rili nt too bad to make the first step rather than sitting and wait there..
after we tried if rili still the same result than it is time for u to let off liao...
this is wad my darl darl and sum frenz told me..

sumtime tinz rili doesnt seem so bad like the way that u think...
think positively...
the result rili will be different..
this is what i experience myself...

my sadness gone immediately after i get the result i wan...
i m so relax now...
mayb thing just can back to normal dy...
this is what i always hope..
start a new life again!!!

<< a family story >> read it!!

this is something i gonna share with all my dear friends...
this is a story that i heard...
in fact it is something that really happen...

*******
there is a family...
the family members are parents and two sons...

the parent...
i really dunno y will they get married as they seem din luv each other...
they argue everyday and each time the word 'divorce' will be out..
the wife just keep feel want to divorce with the husband but the husband just cannot let the wife go..
wtf..
argue and argue the same thing over day and day..
most serious thing the wife even ran away from the house and hide herself so that the family cannot find after one time of arguement...
really cnt get what they are trying to do about...
but they always din take noticed of their sons feeling that dun like them to argue lidat...

the elder son..
he is a quite intelligent ppl as he always score with flying colours in all his exam...
now he get the chance to study in university and he will be going to overseas soon to further his study...
everytime when he saw his parents argue he just din care and he just very agreed that his parent just divorce rather than make the house so noisy...

here come the second son...
he is not that clever as compared to his brother...
he is just a moderate student...
not really excellent in study...
but the mother just always give stress over him that he must follow his brother track...

one day...
the second son just cannot stand all the pressure he is facing and he just act strange...
the whole family noticed it...
and now both the parents dun dare argue anymore...
just let the boy do what he want...
but the situation just seem din get well...
the elder son finally just cannot stand it and he pulled the second son to scold...
he asked his little brother y he wanted to act lidat...

guess what the second son answer???

he said....
i hate my parents to hell...
is them who ruined my life...
if in the end i m goin to act anything or even to commit suicide..
is my parent that murdered me!!!

the story i think will still be going on...
but i m not going to drag so long la...

what is your feeling after listening this story??
the second son just hate his parent so deeply...
do you think the second son wrong or you think is the parents???

is kinda sad thing for me to hear that...
a happy family just ruined lidat...
i really dont think the family will be peaceful anymore...
it is a difficult pathway for them to go on...
and now the most probably thing to happen is that the second son will not scored well in his coming exam dy...
maybe he will just give out his fututre due to the hateness to his parents...

trial ended!!!

lol...facebooking liao...

finally ended my trial lo...
yippie!!!

2ml not goin skul again lo...
now rili like the feeling of ponteng liao...
so suang leh...
can play whole day at hauz....

one more tinz is nw dun dare go skul cause teacher oso will give bek exam paper...
haiz...
i rili dun dare to c my results la...
sure damn suck geh...

now the most hopefully tinz i m looking forward is my redang trip on this coming sunday o...
haha...
finally i can have sum rest n travel rahter than spending my whole holiday for tuition liao...
tink dao oso so suang...

redang...
wait me o!!!^^

my sunday

the feeling today is boring..
since i wake up in the morning i dy start facing the bio work book...
cause 2ml is my last paper...
lol...sien dao...

finally nw i can on9nto express my feeling liao...
hehe...
n not to forget i m goin to addict myself to facebook again dy...

tata^^

for you

sien la 2day...
just cnt find wat to do...
ny study for the only paper that i left to sit for lo...
boring dao si...

actually what should be in our life??
do we need to really have fun or most important is do n complete our mission in life??
what do we really need to care for??
do we really need to care what ppl impression towards u??
do a relationship or a successful career more important to us??

life is just full of question...
it also full of challenges and difficulties for us to experience it...
so something if really had passed in our life just dont need to look it as so important again...
life is still full of many wonderful things that u have to do...

this post is purposely for one of my friend...
hope her can successfully get an exit from the problem she is facing now...


**if u can see, rmb promise me to be happy always ya!!
i m always by your side!!**

final paper left!!

final paper left on monday!!!
wahaha...
so happy...

but leh 2day d math 2 i tink die oso dy...
over dy dn duan la...
fan zheng i oso die so mani liao lo...
hehe....

2day afta finish skul dn go yi dou bei with my gang...
lol...
v chatted so much...
so damn funny la n gt sum very lang cheong tim...
i felt so relax when spent time with them...
got wad fan nao os 4gt liao lo...

how wish i could spent more time with them...
but it goin to reach stpm liao...
after that all of us will mayb just go diff place...
i tink til dat time i will rili miss the moment we had now...
i do appreciate this precious time^^

din go skul d life

lol...2day din go study at hauz...
n study my nath 2 cause 2ml nid exam...
lol..
sked2 la...
sked i dun understand n cnt get wad the quez is askin about...
cause i evytime oso lidat wan...
c dao dose quez then feel vy helpless...
hope 2ml wont lidat lo...
cause i dy duno can how...
shud read d tinz i also read liao lo...
god bless me!!!


wad i do 2day at hauz sumore leh??
haha..

geng lo...
2day i learn to make guai ning go....
haha...
cause leh my cousin bro say he damn like eat mar...
ma plan to make gv hm make lo since i din go skul...
result leh is quite successful gua...
cause my grandparent say nice o..
wuhu!!!
so happy^^

die die die!!!

haiz...1 more paper gone dy...
rili wana cry dy la..
cham...

my math 1 a...
study so much dy still lidat...
haiz...
make mi rili lut to exam liao leh!!!

nw still left 2 more paper to go...
luckily 2ml no paper...
if not i rili wan muntah darah dy...
T.T

not to forget...
n wana announce loud2 geh...
2ml i m not going to skul!!!!
wahahaha...
finally i can ponteng liao...
lol...i wan ponteng oso so damn susah...
say many times dy but evytime also cause sum special reason wan go skul...
but 1 tinz to sad is my full attendance cert gone lo...
nvm ler...
cause i so damn miss ponteng geh life..
hehe...

st john annual dinner 2009 (1)

2 more subject for me to go for my trial...
lol...study study n study!!!!
hate @.@

yesterday is the annual diner for st john...
held at mexica restaurant...
lol...is quite fun...
evy1 is very high...
perhaps v r vy noisy cause evy1 is yelling n screaming there...
too happy dy i tink...

atter the dinner..v take many pictures...
n had a lot of chat with all the officers too...
thx for all ya advice..
i sure will kept it in mind want...

st john is a really fun society to join...
i rili gain a lot of knowledge and experience frm there...
mayb after this dinner i won have the chance for other activity liao...
bt duno la...c 1st lo...
quite bu she de to put it down o act...
haha...


gary n me



foo n me



dr hew n me



han nan n me



soon keat n me


lol..there is still quite alot pic geh...
wait for my next upload la...
hehe...


k lo...wana continue my study geh...
^^

one day

left two more week to go will reach a day whr once it is quite impt and meaningful for me wan...
but now d day seem just move far away from me dy...
i duno y...
just sumtime i rili hope it will still remain for me...
d reality just does not go on d way dat i hope...
sui ran mani tinz happen...
but this day once is so impt and it will owiz remain as impt to mi in my heart hw long as i live...
hope i still can take a part in this day...
mayb it just wad i hope...
but no matter it is just tinking or wad...
i will still rmb this day forever....

act shud i take sum action or i just shud stand still to wait d situation to change over??
sum how i just cnt take out the braveness although i so hope to do so...
perhaps what i just say at here is just a express of my feeling...
many will ask y i kip say but din do anytinz...

is not that i dun wn do anything..
just i rili cnt afford to accept the consequences that will happen...
if it is a good ending then i will just be alright...
but how if is a bad ending...
i cnt imagine how m i gonna react and respond...
i sked i will just lose this things forever dy...
i dun dare to face the reality...

so so so sorry...
i m just an ordinary girl...
i hope for my life too...
i just cannot do it by now...
really sorry...

exam+sick

lol..
my trial dy finish for 2 subject liao...
nw left two more...
nid jia you jia you liao...
hope faster finis exam o^^

but 2day i stomachache liao...
so cham..
pain liao whole day oso not yet recover...
wan sleep oso cnt leh T.T
kesian...

last day of holiday

2ml gonna start my trial dy...
3 weeks..
rili gona die leh...
so damn hate exam day...

nw still mtinking wana ponteng nt during exam week...
if ponteng i will lose my full attendance cert...
since i dy so good tahan for so long liao...
but now i rili damn no mood to go skul liao...
wad to do???

1 week of holiday gona end soon...
tink bek wad i did for this holiday...
tuition for almost 1 week...
study...
my whole holiday just cnt left off my book...
so cham...
haiz...

lol...
start frm 2ml mayb i will on9 less geh...
but wait for my update la...
cause i sure will cnt tahan n want to release it at here want...
hehe...
and wish all my friends exam gambateh o!!!
add oil add oil^^

relationship

lol...
holiday seem wana end liao...
means my trial is cming rili soon....
sked2 T.T

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relationship between people isnt so easily to let off...
mayb the 1st minutes u can say til very loud that u won care anymore...
but the very next minutes i m sure u will regret for it...
cause it did happen on me...
i just use quite alot of braveness to recover from the sadness i get...
though i feel so wana let it off...
but if i have the chance to fix it back i tink i will agree without tinking...
cause when i m going to let off i really did cry for so many times...
perhaps just few people will noe bout it...
cause i just dun wish to show the weak side of me to people...
anyway...
i do appreciate every relationship that i have no matter is what...

first day holiday

what a dignity...
so soon my first day of holiday ended...
haiyo...

today early morning wake up for tuition...
it was so pack at dere...
cause teacher combining 2 classes together...
but luckily tomorrow teacher is spliting us...
if not i really cannot imagine how can i sit like that to tuition 1 week...

then in the afternoon i went out to do something damn important...
till the day reach...the specific want will know what i do today!!!

then night time...i had a diner with all the ex-librarian ajk...
and we are treating teacher too....
lol...is such fun cause we get to listen many story from teacher about our school which was quite interesting...
haha...

lol...now although is midnight...but i still havent get to sleep....
typing here to update my info during holiday...
lol...so tired dy...
nitezz and tata..
way to my bed now @.@

holiday started

holiday started again...
mean that there is still one week lidat is my trial dy...
nightmare!!!

many thing to read off...
some i read liao oso forget dy...
how???

this holiday will just be the time where full of books and tuition....
sobss T.T

but i think i oso will on9 geh...
to update my blog and manage my farm...
haha...
cause i think i will sot if i face the book whole day....
haiz...

anyway...
want tell all my friends...
gambateh ya!!!
together we work out for our trial...
^^

bad news

arrgghh!!!

today when i get hauz i get a damn damn bad news!!!!

know what??

my fish half dying liao...

he is being blended in the washing machine!!!!

haiz...pity hm la...

he din even touch water before leh...

now have to stay in the dark2 machine and being turned and turned....

also my aunt fault la...

she help me to change bedsheet then she duno how take the bedsheet wan...

then my pity fish also being taken together with the bedsheet and blend in the machine!!!

i taken him for sun bathing liao...

but i feel he seem gt bit2 'bian xing' liao...

so sad la me T.T

pity fish T.T

i got 'bian xing' not??

fish sunday

lol...boring2 T.T
on9 oso duno want do wad leh beside playing facebook...
i keep no mood to study liao...
duno y...
sien...
c book dn i will start feel sleepy liao...

ytd nite i go out diner with my family...
go balok dere eat seafood...
wow...dey order so many leh...
n evy1 eating so suang...
especially the crab...
haha...
luckily i eat liao no allergy...

2ml is monday again...
need go school...
and faced sum boring teacher...
haiz...
what kind of life that i am having??
when can i end that??

p/s: wish to c him

my saturday

lol...i m totally addicted to facebook liao i tink...
there is so many game to play with and all of them are fun...
haha...

today is a great day cause i dont have any activity...
finally i get a chance to sleep till late a bit and i have a whole free day to do what i wanted to do...
so happy!! haha...

yesterday heard a bad news...
an accident happen to my friend...
what i heard is not serious la...
luckily...
i really dont wish anything happen to my friend...
anyway...hope she will recover soon la...

sick 2

today there were many pegawai kesihatan came to the school to check wether we have the symptom of H1N1...
i need to go check cause still sick...
when i reached the bilik perubatan i were shocked...
there were so many other student who are also sick...
wow...

lol...i am so scare to go in check cause i scare i will be suspected...
but luckily not...
my body temperature was 37 degree...
scare die me...

haiz...
sui ran no H1N1...
but this sick also make dao me so xin ku...
cause i need eat medicine...
and sometime feel cold and sometime feel hot...

hope to recover soon^^

librarian

just reached home ny me...
just now attend a damn important and long meeting...
now feeling so happy n relax...
so wana shout loud2 for people to listen...
finally i SERAH KUASA liao!!!!!!!!!!!

after being the post for almost one year...
finally is the time for me to put down this responsibility...

see and recall back this one year...
there is many sadness and happiness...some more many problem to handle and settle...
being this post...i laugh before...i smile before...i cry before....i moody before...
laugh because i really have good time with all the ajk gang as we organise many program and event together before...
smile because there is many sweet memory together with other at library....
cry because i really cannot stand the pressure and sometime problem that difficuly to settle...
moody because there is really many thing to think of when organising program and all the librarian...

not just that...
holding this post really let me to learn many new experience...
i learned how to lead a team of people...
i learned how to organise people and event...
i even learned how to see a people according to their attitude...

indeed...
being such a post let me become mature...
i know how to say 'no' to other...
i know how to tell out the feeling and thinking of mine which i seldom do it before...

one year...
although this is not a long matter of time...
but i can say this is the most meaningful year i have with all the knowledge, technique and experience that i get from this post...

now..finally is the chance for me to let off it...
perhaps i will feel not biasa with it during this mean time...
but i really need to thank teacher for everything during this one year period...

i hope the new board will lead the librarian properly..
and lastly wish good luck for them in the coming one year time...
GOOD LUCK^^

for me which had ended my responsibility...
now i can have time to start focus on my study dy...
cause my trial is really near liao...
gambateh!!

sick T.T

sick again...
T.T
flu...
so san fu...
n so scare leh...
sked kena H1N1....
haiz...

today get to chat wit sum1 dat i din rili chat properly since mid year holiday...
get to know sumtinz bout hm...
although feel sad for him but happy for him oso cause he finally get the reply n know the answer...
anyway life is still full of many other thing that need you to discover...
besides saying this i think that is ntg much i can do...
cause i cnt help you much beside giving you advice and comforting you...
hope you will always happy lo...
remember you are not alone...
if you just cnt find any1 to share your problem you can always find me...
i will always be there...^^
gambateh o!!!

cut hair dy

lol...i go cut my hair again liao...
haha...
cz i feel my front dere vy long liao n kip poke my eye...

but leh cut liao not seem got wad diff lo...mayb jz short abit la...
wen tie up mayb big diff bit gua...

tinking so long wan cut n change hairstyle...
but i just dont have the yong qi lo...
haha..
perhaps after finish stpm wen i stay i at hauz dunid c ppl time then i wil go change lo...
anyway c 1st lo...
hehe..

p/s:miss^^

my fear

perhaps day will just pass by and we totally cannot predict what will happen tomorrow...

now H1N1 is so widely spread dy...
even the SMART had been closed..
today heard that our school also gt suspected people...
maybe our school going to close soon...
but maybe is only just rumour...

school being closed supposed to be happy cause we dont need to go school...can rest...
but thinking about the trial stpm which is coming soon...instead it is not what so great to be happy about...
because of this disease we did get to continue our tuition leh...
sylabus haven finish...feel so damn sked dy...

now still have one month for us to prepare for the trial...
but i still seem what also very blur leh...
how am i gonna sit for the exam??
i dont want to fail it!!!
this is the last chance before i sit for the real stpm...
what a sigh...
i am so gonna get a proper result!!!!
help!!!

you

whenever there is something happen can you just don't always come n blame me??
this dy nt the 1st time...
whenever you call me is just to blame me wether i do this n that to you...
i m not your suspect...
i dy very tired always being involved into what that happen to you for no reason...

if thing just go on like that...
i rather you don't contact me at all...
if you still treat me as friend...
can you have sum trust on me???
don't just come n blame me because of what other say...
if you don't treat me as friend anymore then it is up to you...
but please give me some respect n treat me as a human being...
i have my feeling also...i m not your doll...
can you try to think of others not whenever you do something???
everytime when i being blame do you know that how i feel??

everytime you just know how to say this people how that people like that...
did you ever try to stand on the other side to think how are yourself??
do you make the same mistake before as others did??
no 1 will always be the correct people..even GOD...

no problem will happen if there is just 1 people that is making it...
cause there will not be any sound when you only hit using 1 hand...

why we will become untill today like this...
both side oso need to pay some responsible...
but i m not trying to claim back anything...
just hoping that our problem will just stop here...
at least the sweet memory n happy time that we had together last time can be kept as a good memory...

some more if you have the chance to see this post..
try to think what i say...
if you feel that you wana hate me or what just go ahead...
this is all the word from my heart...
is also my thinking of you whenever there is thing happen between us...

friend just wont forever act like what you want them to be...
wether a friendship can last long or not depend on how you think..
everyone has different behaviour...
in reality there just no one will always there to fulfill your need just like what you imagine...
if there is really someone just don't be happy...
cause it will not last long also...
try to think for others and there will not be many problem...

lastly...about me n you...
just let time to clear out all the bad memory that we had...
for our friendship just depend on chance to decide for its existance la...

...

haiz...
wad i dun wan happen d tinz happen again!!!
sumtime rili damn hate to write blog cause kip gt misunderstand happen here...

1st of all..dat blog rili doesnt mean u...
i have my other prob to take k about n nt just only dat...
sori to let u misunderstood...
if u stil kip tinking i m talking about u dn i rili duno wan how to explain liao...
mayb u just tink dat i rili so easy to wu hui u in the meanwhile i m nt...
hope u know that...

bad day!!!

gek die mi 2day!!!

i have no mean to exclude out any1 or wad...
wad is the meaning that " i dy b so long in here bt y u put mi 2 do that job??"
although this is nt straight 4ward say out to mi, i feel it quite hard!!!

i use my whole nite to arrange those tinz...
tink n tink...
at last i m being blame for duno why...
rili feel like scolding bad word...
say til like i gv ppl job according to their relationship to mi...
please la...c clearly ur attitude before say that...
i have it 1 time dy...is enough liao...
til now the result from the tinz i ask u 2 do last time still fresh in my mind...
because of your attitude...i need to spend a whole day more to fix the situation....
so..how dare i give something else for you to do???

haiz...sumore today i scold 1 gang of librarian which have bad attitude...
from i go in to the library they started their conversation just like no other else in there...
that time is 2pm....
they continued on their talks loudly...although they are dutying...
at that time i just give them chance and din say anytinz cause i just wan to c wen they will notice and stop to talk themselves....
too bad...they just keep on talking until 2.30pm which is the time they finish duty...
wow....i m rili damn angri liao...
so sorry la to other that is nt kaitan...
i need to scold them loudly cause i really damn bu suang liao...
paiseh...cause i tink many din expect to see me scolding ppl as i seldom do it at school...
lol...

attitude

y ppl can get wad they wan although they din gv out much???
bt y sum ppl just kip do bt mayb cnt get the tinz they wan??

recently heard sumtinz frm other....
there wil b 1 event held...
n there is dz ppl that is been told that he nid do sumtinz for the event...
n wad he gt know is that bcz he is 1 of the member he nid to do it...
he is just a member...nt a committee...
ok..mayb this is just ntg...
then he heard that the ppl that original wil do wit hm wil nt do 2gether wit hm anymore...
just bcz the ppl has a so cal more impt duty that is only nid to do on that nite...
ending up...the ppl do the tinz hmself...
wow....praise frm mi to the ppl n a dissapointed to those other ppl as the committee...

i m nt here to comment anytinz...
just 1 of my feeling that y sum ppl can so li suo dang ran to ask ppl to do sumtinz that is quite impossible without letting ppl chuse they willing or nt as they r nt committee...
n just let those hu is fren wit them abit wan just do the simple n easy job???

pain pain

aduhhzz....
rili a cham day 4 mi ytd...
cz i gv hot2 tinz tang dao my right hand...
so damn pain leh...
n dat time hurt dao dat part oso all red dy...
T.T

luckily mummy at hauz n she help mi apply medicine...
bu ran i tink my hand no more liao la...
sure gt 1 big2 scar dere...

2day my hand is btr liao...
n luckily i cnt trace any scar leaving bhind...

ytd dat experiance remind mi of laz time a same experience on myself oso...
dat time i tang dao left hand...
wa...so damn pain..even serious than dz time leh...
dat time stil quite small...
dn i oso duno why i go n open dose shui ji lidat d tinz...
i oso cnt understand my strange action dat time...
mayb just due to my curiousity gua...
d moment that i open it...
wa...d heat just rush out n my hand is heated n so pain...
bt sum how lucky dat is dat i din put my face over there...
bu ran i tink i hui rong liao...
that incident did left a scar at my hand bt nt so ming xian la...
hao chai....
haha...

anyway just want to remind all people to b more kful la...
try ur best to nt put urself in danger...
life is precious...
n there is no 2nd time for us to return...
live your life to the fullest n dun regret!!^^

2nd recess

lol...gv ppl say my blog no post...
haiz..so nt suang...
wan kip update liao..

juz nw face somani prob 2 link my fren blog leh...
1 ppl 1 ppl lidat go open dn copy d url...
aduizz...
nw i gv up liao...wait me nxt time gt patient time dn i add again lo....

life at skul 2day is such a boring...
jus nw 2nd reces time i went to opposite skul dere wit my frenzz...
plan 2 eat 'bomb' rice...

lol..rili zadao leh...
stil nid line up o...
more kua zhang is dat although v gt our rice liao bt v stil take time to take our vege...
dose lower 6 student rili geng...dey cn eat so mani...
since i go in i dy stand at the same place din move 4 5 min leh...
nt i wan frozen dere bt i din gt d chance to go to other side oso...
kip gv ppl halang nia... T.T
haiz...cham dao...holdin d tinz 4 so long n even bcm d waiter n help my fren take vege...

wad a bad experiance i had 2day...
aiyo...
mayb dere is no other chance 4 mi to go dere eat at that peak hour liao...
cz rili pack lik sardine...
=.='''

moody post

lalala..
feeling damn like write blog bt sumtime damn lazi leh..
hehe...

2day suppose to be a special n meaningful day..
bt too bad...
due to sumtinz that happen ytd..
just paz by today like a normal day nia... T.T

haiz...i tink i m vy sui leh...
evytime blame ppl lik no nid modal wn...
4 all tinz dat other done for me...
i just ban all wen prob cm out...
trying to change my attitude dy..
gv mi sum time lor...

hihi^^

lol..finally i open dao dz blog dy...
haha...

anyway...this is just an intro blog o...
way go for other more update frm mi ya!!^^

welcome to owiz view my blog o!!!

tatazz..