i m not your maid

yer..you thought i m your maid or what...
order me to do this and that...
who you think you are...

hey...see properly...
i just help you all out of kindness...
that is not my job ok???

you have no right to order me to do any of your job...
cause i have my own too...
i will help if i can...
but not being order this and that by you...

do whatever your job is unless you wanna give half of your money to me...
if not...keep your bull shit mouth shut!!!!

really damn bu suang again...
so irresponsible ppl that i met...
make my mood bad the whole day liao...

if you want my help you can just ask...
please dont ever try to order me again like i m your maid...
if not...you will get something unexpected from me...
dun try to challenge me...
unless you want your 'big reward' to come soon!!!

this is my word to you now...

and i swear!!

sleepless....

is already midnight...
if last time...i should have sleep till damn tight in my sweet bed...

but recently...i just cant help to drag myself onto my bed....
not that i m not tired...
just i cant make my mind to sleep...

even for this week...my sleeping time is more and more late...
compared ti last time...i maybe only stay till such late once in a while...
but now...is everyday!!!!
can you imagine that??

everyday i m telling myself that tonight i want to sleep earlier so i wont feel sleepy during work time...
in the end...i ended up slept for only 6 hours like that...

what happened to me???
i feel that i m to dependent on him dy..
mostly i spend my night hanging fon with him...
till i dun feel wanna sleep...
or sometime waiting him to be free and call me for a good night...

all this and that is because of him...
he is so much important to me...

i love him so much^^

maybe i just should drag myself to bed liao...
if not 2molo i really dunid wake dy...
anyway....i think i really need someone to make me sleep early every night...
who is willing to take up this job???

25.4.2010

so fast it dy approaching end of april...
one quarters of year 2010 had passed...
hmm...many happen la actually in between this period of time...
happy...sad...exciting...memorable...

i seem to grown up...
i learned a lot of things that all of us should always pratise in our life..

no doubt that i m kinda emo and sad for the past few days...
but now...i m ok dy...
i can smile..and even laugh...

smile from inner of my heart...
especially when i m with darr darr...
he really help to cheer up my life much...
whenever i m sad..i wanted to be with him so much...
he wont let me to be sad alone...
he will try any way to make me smile...
really thx him alot this past few days...
even he is not in ktn...

anyway...darr darr now is still in kl er...
he say he will rush back later so that he can pui me 2molo...
so happy that he is so good to me..
hope him has a safe journey o...

god...please bless him....
cause he is my support....
nothing can happen to him want^^

cry

dunno how other will think bout crying...
today i ny know that cry can help me let off all my bad mood...

today after something that happened...
it makes my tears jusr rolled down through my face...
it was so uncontrollable...

i admit that once i started to cry it will be very difficult for me to stop...
i keep crying non-stop...
till i cnt even continue my work...

thx for auntie that comfort me alot...
u really make me calm down...
thx cause u din scold me cause not continuing my work...

after the cry...
i feel so much better...
all the bad mood in me dy dissapeared...

maybe next time if i still get this situation...
i should cry more early to let off it...

hope 2molo will b a better day...

in fact..i m off but i m attending the munsyi exam...
lolxx...
good luck to me^^

and all the bast to all my friends who are taking the exam also....

heart sank...

 am in bad mood this few day..
mood bcm even bad after i heard what he is doing...

not understand y i will like that...
not dun want let him to do like that...
but i just will feel damn not happy...
my heart sank deeply...

some more...there is other problem...
haiz...
y suddenly so many thing pop out??
i just want to let the rest of my time at there happily pass...

really duno why got like that d ppl...
i really hate la!!!!

haiz...
keep silent i think is the best..
maybe just use back the fake face to face ppl again...
if the situation still like that and i cnt change anything...
the most unwanted way will be use..

bu suang!!! heng!!!

really so beh song leh..heng!!!

y got like that d ppl want...
8 dao...everything also want say a part...
some more still ban till very clever like that...

yala yala...
me like this la..me like that la...
you taught you very geng meh??

you taught you are fortune teller a??
this world nothing is definitely want...
maybe last time thing happen is cause of that but not mean that this time also will cause of that...

no one in this world dare to say for sure...
who you think you are to say that???

ta ma de!!!
damn angry a!!!

hate this feeling!!!!

still damn not in mood now...haiz...
i also duno what happened to me...

there is this something in my heart that make me cant smile sincerely out frm my heart....
i really duno what is that stupid thing that make my mood till like that...

duno how to relief this feeling...
tried dy..not work also...
even just now go out and hang kai with sis at ecm...

maybe everyone just see me like normal time...
but this is just what i show...
my heart is not like that...

i hate that...
i want to get rid of this feeling!!!
damn it!!!!

come come come...
find some happy things to tell me...

rubbish post

again is my off day...
but somehow i seem to loss the excitement as compared to last time...

i just want to stay at house and relax leh...
maybe i m really too tired liao...
tired of everything...

blogging...blogging and blogging...
if u din mean it sincerely dun post it at blog...
blog is a place to express something u think...
if you din think so...dun post...
or maybe just i think too much ady...

haiz...moody...
i need someone to understand my feeling...
i need a shoulder...
i need an ear too...

i miss darr darr right now...
hmm...but i heard him say this morning that he is going to kl again...
for sure he is going to be busy right there.....
duno la...

*end!!!*

sori....i just post a bunch of rubbish in this post...
cause my feeling is mess up...
just crapping for nothing!!!
bla bla bla....

weird feeling

sometime really dunno want how to express my feeling here...
there is something not so easy to voice out and describe it...

time flies...
things have change...
i am trying to get use of it..
cause i know i will face this type of thing in future also...

recently...
my work bcm quite busy...
undeniable..i have lesser time to think bout other things...
is it a good thing to me???
i cant really confirm about it...

just...hmm...
i cant tell what...
there is just a weird feeling in my heart now...
i cant figure out is about what...

do anyone can help me to check it out???

leg pain dao!!!

it has been ages since the last time i dance for performance...
today i try to learn back the dance...

hmm...i din forget it much...
and i tought i can handle it well...
how know the effect just come now...

my leg are so damn pain leh...
the muscle like have been over-stretched...
till i want to sit or walk also will feel that the muscle is pulling...
suffering la...

cham dao...
but i still need to practise it continuously...
there is still 1 month left nia...

gambateh!!!^^

off day 9

today is really a busy day for me although is my off day again...

early in the morning i dy wake up...
cause today i can meet dao darr darr o as he is not working...
so happy leh...
really appreciate every moment that i can spend with darr darr leh...
every time i also hope the time can just stop there...
so i can have every minutes sweet...

in the afternoon...i went to sushi king with jin and yipo...
hmm...as it is the great bonanza again...
each plate of sushi only cost rm2 ny o...
eat dao us so full leh....
when time for bill...
hmm...we only spend rm39.10 nia all together...
cheap dao...
2molo mayb going again...
depend la..

then night time pui my sis go out to find dinner dress at megamall...
finally she get one...
till now i ny back hauz and on9 again...

so it all my program for my off day today o...
isnt it seem kinda full and pack..
haha...
no choice lo...
cause i ny have the chance once per week nia!!!
must grab and use good giid want...

memory

hmm..suddenly feel so 'wu nai'...

just now i have been busy finding the video for a dance where once upon a time being performed ...
finally...i found it...
i m so so going to take that to ask other opinion for the dance we are planning about...

some more...i did saw also many photo once which was taken last time...
is so sweet!!!^^

it had become memory nowadays...
cause in reality...i dun think the situation will be like that anymore...
especially...hmm...

sometime is kinda sad lo...
but i understand that we need to move on in our life...
thing will be gone totally if u din catch it properly...
there is no way for you to regret anything...
and time fade...
till we cant fight with it... 

just hope all the old time memories will be kept forever in everyone heart...
it is a precious memory indeed...
although it has passed...

help!!! need it urgently...

aiya...very fan la...
there is still one month left ny for me to plan and gao dim all the activity for the celebration of my shop d one year anniversery...

head think till want burst liao also duno what program should be plan for that night leh...

hmm...thinking for an opening dance...
but now i still can get a suitable song for it...
dun really know later we still got time to practice it not...

anyone can just give me some suggestion not???
i really need help...
especially dance expert o!!!^^
thx ya!!!

nowadays..working life seem to become a burden to me...
not to say that i dun like that work..
just everyday need to continue with the same life seem so boring liao...
sometim ei just want to spend more time at home since two more month i will be leaving house for study dy maybe...
by that time i will always not at house liao...

even now i also sometime feel so lazy to step out from my house when i have my off day...
my house is so damn important to me..
is like a place that give me warmness and safety...
i can find all the love that come from family here...
hmm...

maybe now i just need to tahan for two more month and i will quit my work for some relaxation...
i cant make the decision right now anyway...

not happy =(

hmm...recently i m quite not happy...
i dun really make sure what is the main cause of it...

many things that happen recently...
all these problem is not directly related to me actually...
but i have been greatly affected by them...

besides that..i dont really know who i should tell the problem...
cause there is something i dont wish to let others know about it..

darr darr is kinda busy nowadays...
i dont hope i will fan dao him sometime...
cause he has his things to settle also...
but whenever i got problem..the 1st ppl i will think about to tell is him...
hmm...i think i m so 'mao dun' la...

haiz...so hope bad things will pass away soon...
cause i am trying to find my smile back..

enough!!!

i m so angry now!!!
how many night i cnt sleep cause thinking of you...
thinking when u will be free...
hope u will spend some time to pui me...
but that is all my hope ny!!!

now i m angry dy!!
up to u whatever u like to do...
i dunwan to k it anymore...
cause my hope will not never come true...

i m just a nobody!!!
is enough!!!

i dy stand it for a few day...
now i just wont tolerate anymore dy!!!!

i m really very angry...
u were not there when i need you so much...
and is not only one time...

what also nvm dy..
u want find me or not also sui bian la...
cause i wont hope for it dy...
i have no feeling to it dy...

and i will tell myself i wont cry cause u were not there for me.....
i will grow up and face all my problem on my own!!!

[heart bleeding]

but i think you wont know it also...

off day 8

one whole off day is going to pass very soon liao...
hmm...so sien leh...
2molo need to back to my work life again..
then wait for the next off day to come by...

today spent my whole morning at house watching dvd after i woke at 10am...
watch till noon...
i m so addicted even till i 4got to on9 to collect my things...

then i pui mum went to make her teeth...
after that i were off to ecm with jin and my work place d ppl...
today i watched 'clash of the titans'...

the movie is about god and devil d fighting..
the characters inside is kinda like those in 'avatar'...
all are so special and been created from imagination i think...
hmm...overall the movie is nice lo...
worth to see la...
got chance u all nust go see o!!^^

after the movie then i go for dinner with jin at red flora cafe...
tried the golden sauce fried rice and mango fish chop...
hmm...not bad...delicious...
and is damn cheap compare to other place o...

hmm...darr darr now is on the way back from kl o...
he said he will reach here bout 11pm o...
really miss him so much la..
finally he is back and can pui me dy..hehe^^

off day planning

2molo is going to be my off day again...
but is without my darr darr o...
what should i do leh??

he is now still outstation i think...
but i dun really sure where is he...
cause i din get any news from him today...
he was so busy for this few days...
hope he wont too tired la...
pray for him o...

darr darr...
u must take good care of yourself a...
dun let me worry k???

hmm...come back to the topic...
i m still planning my program 2molo...
jin is asking me out for mcd 2molo morning since she has the voucher for it...
then i m also planning to have a movie with her and my work place d ppl in the evening...
then afternoon i m going to pui mummy go to make her teeth...
some more sis is waiting for me to pui her go buy dress...
wow..i think there is many thing for me to do la 2molo...

i better have my time all plan properly before i mess up everything...
lol...
i dont want get scolded by anyone...

hmm...for darr darr...
next week i only can spend time with u leh..
miss the time we were together la...^^

untitled

today is still a boring day...
whole day just spend for my work nia...
then back house and now on9...

darr darr is so busy with his event at kl...
till cnt pui me now...
hmm...but i m  not angry la...
cause he got important thing to do mar...

haiz...
my stomach is so damn pain la now...
cause personal problem la...

2ml work for one more day then is my off day again lu...
darr darr will not be at ktn until 2ml nite...
hmm....thinking what i shud do on that day...
thinking of go for a movie...
and jin also lao me go eat thing...
need to think to plan my program that day lu...
headache la...
let me think think la..hmm...

april fool

happy april fool everyone!!!^^

hmm...it has been 3 months time since i started my work for the first day...
get my 3rd pay yesterday dy...
quite ok la actually..

btw...2day din being fooled by anyone...luckily....
2day red flora cafe opposite my shop made a promotion where the curry mee sell is only rm1...
so we think to went to try it...
well...as a rm1 curry mee...is not that bad la actually..
just the taste really has so much different with those curry mee i normally eat...
but just rm1 la...i din expect for too much also...

then my dinner today i have it in satay zul...
wow...is so damn delicious..
i din go there to eat for such a long time liao la....
i had about 10 satay for my dinner lo...
is it too much?? aiyo...
i think i m getting on weight liao la...
cham liao...but is so nice to eat..i just cant stop myself!!!!

darr darr is at kl now dy...
just reach not long want...
he go to do some stuff...
will only be back few more days later...
hmm...i m going to miss him so so so much....
lolxx....