national day

national day...
suppose as known for all is a public holiday..
but i still got class on 5pm!!!
ewww...hate it la...originally i can go out and play want..
now no more!!!

i think i should go out and relax myself...
this few day  i really not in good condition...
even u talk a joke in front of me...
i cant laugh out from my heart...
seem that no one know ba...

maybe is just my fault that i cant fulfill all the way you want...
i m really sorry...

tears follow me into my sleep recently...
really duno wad will come out after this if all my tears dry up..
every morning wake up...look into the mirror..
i will frighten myself by my face...
i m totally down...


sleepless night...countless tears...
i wonder how long can i stand anymore??


i want to back ktn...
cause i can see you there...
i miss you so much..
i miss every single things of you...
i wish now you r just beside me...
comforting me...
i need you every single second...

how i wish that till i can dream about it when i sleep...
how i wish that till halfway in my work i will imagine about it...
how i wish...

food tech course night 2010

sunday 29/8/10...
my first food tech course night in upm...

before the night...
all of us juniors have been spending our free time to practice and preparing for the night..
2 performance- dance and drama...

on that day morning..
we get up early morning to start dressing up ourself..
cause we need to go there early to play some games with 2nd year seniors...
have fun cause finally have a chance to work together to win a session...

anyway...i m here to thx my dear frens...eva and ing poh that help me to make up and style my hair...
u guys are so pro!!!
love u guys...muackzzzz...

that night...
performance goes on well...
but our dance is out of tune with the music in the beginning...
too bad...but it ended well....
an applause goes to the drama team...
cause they really done a good job...
their scene makes all the seniors entertained...
well done all of you....
BSTM 1st year juniors are the best!!!
gambateh for next year course night...

not to forget...
our course king and queen...
ang and kam chen...
congratss ya^^

the food that night were so nice...
although is not wad luxurious food...they are much more better than the food inside uni...
maybe is just too hungry..i think all of us eat damn much....

anyway...
photos will be uploaded soon when i back kuantan for my raya holidays...
countdown-ing...there is 3 more days to go...
hooray!!!
stay tuned...

tiring weekend

look back at my blog list...
wow...this month i think i update very few of my news la...
really very sorry...
cause really damn busy...
after assignment then comes exam then now course night somemore...
really make me head big liao...
kesian..

today is a public holiday...
many of them can go out play or even go home...
but me and my fren wad also cant do cause need to practice for my course night...
so cham that all of us practice till now everyone have difficulty of walking especially when going up and down the stairs...

hope everyone enjoy their weekend lu...
and happy birthday to my dear jin jin...
she is officially 20 today...
cant celebrate with her today...
hope you enjoy the day!!!^^

stressful

although exam had finished 3 days ago...
till now i still dun really have a chance to rest myself...
sigh for myself..

this two days i m mostly busy of the yinzi which i m one of the ajk for the event..
tonight it will be the real event..
hope all the best to everyone in the event and the event can go on smoothly..

secondly...
my course night is coming soon on this sunday...
m also stress badly cause our performance still cant go on well..
this few night gonna spent sleepless night to practice for it..
if not i really duno wad to perform out when we are on stage..
gambateh everyone!!!
i know we can do it...

one more thing...
my report...is like stack until duno how high liao...
yesterday just stay till midnight to settle one of it...
now i still have one more to go...
this semester i only got 2 lab...
also suffer till like this liao..
i really cant imagine how i can stand for those coming semester...
cause just for second semester nia i dy will have 5 lab!!!
OMG!!!
haiz...too late to regret that i m choosing this course dy i think...

anyway...my darr darr is now so sad...
i duno how to help him T.T
i feel i m so useless la..

now i m just going to cry alone myself where no one will know..
wish i can just dissapear from the world now...

sleepy but cant sleep

just finish my pertanian exam..hmm...
not bad and not good...
the prof just give us 20 obj quez...
but mostly come out those statistic want...
gosh...i din even go memorize it purposely leh...
just folow my feel to ans nia...
hmm...really nid to wish good luck to myself liao!!!

cause of exam then can go out so early and on9 now...
but i m damn sleepy right now leh...
cause ytd have a nice time chatting with my senior..
both of us are from ktn..
so exchanging about information in ktn...
haha...till i forget time i need to sleep liao...

the sad thing is i cant go bek to my room to sleep after my physic class...
cause i got a meeting about yin zi...
hmm...i m currently the committee member for the yin zi presentation day...
m as the location and transport group...
next week will be the new even so now have to really start prepared liao..

anyway...this week cant play liao..
cause i still got 3 more papers to go on this sun..
which is the paper i hate the most..
kenegaraan, titas and hubungan etnik...
all are like sejarah like that...
then after exam i need to prepare for yinzi and my course nite liao...
even nid to dance in course nite leh...
sked leh!!!

not to forget...currently i m at faculty...
so i get the chance to update my blog..
cause wen at room sometime it cant open my blog..
so my update will be lesser now...
but must stay tuned o!!!

18/8/2010 - worst day

hate!!! i m so damn moodless now...
and the rain now make me even down...
hate today!!!
18/8/2010....

today is the worst day i ever had...
i wanna cry but i cant get the tears out of my eyes...
duno y...mayb just because i m at outside but not my house...
cant really let myself released all the sadness..

sometime i really duno who i really is...
till i can be treated like this by ppl...

i stay till late midnight just because of you...
just to help you settle your thing...
although i have class early morning the next day...
because is you...i sacrifice for you...

but the next day...because some problem...
i being scolded and ignored by you...
confused...
who m i to you actually??
do i really so important for you till i being treated like that??

my whole day mood gone...
plus is raining now..
is just like my feeling...
crying in my heart...
no one will know cause i din let anyone to know it..

really...i feel i m so stupid on that moment...
for what i do so many thing to exchange for the treatment i get now???

i hate!!!hate this feeling!!!

really very sad...

angry!!! frustrated!!!

it has been so many days i din update my blog...
cause i m super-busy and my blogspot cant open recently due to line problem at here...

today finally i can come up to here and write my feeling...
haiz...i m so damn bu shuang leh...
keep in my heart for so many days liao...

first of all...
my kenegaraan presentation...
the prof din even mentioned our group that going present on this week...
then my groupmate was not sure wen we going to present...
so they go and ask him to confirm...
noe wad prof say???
he say u all are going to present this week...
be prepared!!
i was like...wad the F!!!
tell us at this last minutes to do a 15 minutes slides for him and must fulfill his requirement...
how we are going to do??
really hate him la...din teach at all in class then still yao qiu high2...
arrgghhh!!!

secondly...
my chem presentation...whr ady be informed to be this week...
those damn groupmates!!! say they ady prepared then evytime we got discussion they say cnt turned up...
wad the hell!!! seem like she is the only one that got something else to busy...no commitment at all!!!
finally...today...wen she gave the info to me...i was totally zadao by her...
noe wad she find??? organic chem leh...as we are studying physical and inorganic chem this sem...for wad she find organic chem give me...sumore is under the topic of biology tim!!!!i really damn bu shuang lo...
then wen i tell her..she say the topic i supposed to say u all ady take it mar..i ntg ma talk this lo!!!
sorry lo..this time i really beh tahan liao...evytime discussion she dunwant come then now complaint us...
nvm..i dun kira so much with her now...so i do it with my fren till just now...
finally i gao dim it...msg them to say make a meeting 2ml to divide wad to say for evyone...
this time she say...erm..maybe i will come la..cz i got other meeting o...
fucking!!!! i m damn frustrated liao...if 2ml she din turn up..then i going to tell my prof!!!!
din see such type ppl before leh...want marks nia...wad also din do dao...even i gao dim for her liao ask her come and i tell her wad to say she also giving excuses!!!!! go die la!!!

i m so damn bu shuang now...even both me and my fren do till evynite till midnight leh...
then no enuf sleep also...panda eyes and headache liao leh!!!
btr next time dun let me meet them or same grp with them...
once is ady damn enuf for me...
hate!!!

life going to be in august..

august liao...
is the most busy month for us i think...
many program coming soon...

firstly, next week and the following week gonna be the exam week...
my 1st paper is general physic...
oh gosh...the subject which i unlike the most but i need to study for it now...
so trying to like it..
besides that...my lecturer...really give him zhadao...teach like tortise lidat...
wonder wether he can finish on time not...

study study study!!!!
wish me luck for exam ba^^

dunwant talk bout it liao...

let talk bout other...
hmm...my presentation...
all of them are queuing and waiting for me now...
damn...6 assignment leh...
that y till now i still stuck inside the library and cant go back to room..
cause later got discussion...
haiz...

somemore...my course night is coming also liao...
on the end of august...
being the 1st year junior so cham...
need give ppl play somemore need perforamance for the senior and also make souvenir to those senior...
rushing time now to practice and my performance is dancing...
cham lu...cause dancing modern dance a!!!
have to learn some more...
so many step to remember...
cham!!!

one more activity coming on august is yin zi d music event...
hmm...i m one of the ajk o...
this time i join the traffic grp...
haha..cause din experience before their job...
gonna be so fun even i m just thinking of it now...
hoping for it^^

hmm...darr darr now at night also got work o...
so i cant have fon talk with him er...
jut can msg with him nia...
 miss his voice so much...
hope he can faster end his work er...
dun wish him to be so busy and tired!!!

i think i merungut too much at here liao...
haha...
but just many things that i wan to say