study week coming~

no class for today...
haiz...supposed i can start my study week from today want...
but the stupid pertanian lecturer make us to present during tomorrow...
yish!!! really dun like la...
tot can ponteng for tml want...
hate hate!!!

hmm...wad should i do today?
study?
i also duno should start study from wad 1st although i ady started with some previously..
i just flip to whr i want study geh...
start from 2ml cannot liao...
must very concentrate dy!!!

i m not going home for this study week...
cause at home many distraction for me...
i sure cannot study dao want...
so i must tahan for this few week more...
then i will be back in my home sweet home^^

now the exam is confirmed at 8th ady...
so mean i can be away from here by 20th...
haha..think dao also very shuang!!!

k then...

boring cause nothing do

hmm..finally gao dim my this semester geh last assignment--PRT2008!!!
i m officially free from assignment ady...
congratz myself...

today din go for clas..
stay inside the room whole day liao...
actually went class also duno for wad...
lecturer ady teach finish wad they suppose to teach...
just like wasting our time going out to do revision ourselves...

now wad should i do?
assignment finished...
noo homework...
but i m kinda lazy to touch the book now?
can i get the permission to rest for 1 night?
hehe...

exam is coming soon actually...
but till now i still cant confirm the date..
just now at fb saw 1 fren say the date no change...
although notice come out liao la...
duno whr she get the news?
who i should believe now??

4 more study days to go....
gambateh everyone!!!
we are going to end our first semester soon^^

i love you..mum n dad!!

long time ago din update my blog with those got feel d post liao...
hmm..maybe recently i m not emo at all...
or maybe i had found a place for me to voice it out indeed of posting it here...

actually...hmm...
some i did tell someone...but some it indeed just kept inside my heart only...
cause when the time i want to tel out everytime i dun have the chance...

yesterday went for a program at nilai..
this is the final project for my koko...
we need to make an kem motivasi for all the form 1 and 2 kids at the secondary school...

this is the first time i be fasilitator for such camp...
it was fun actually...
watching them just like those small kids and we r like sis watching them out...
haha..seem that we r kinda old liao right?

until one of the session whr really need to motivate them...
a story about parents is spoke out by the mc...
wa...it was really touching lo...
all the kids just cried out..even for guys...

when i m listening the story...
my tears gonna rolled down soon...
but i m controlling it...
really...
parents is still the one very important to me actually...
whenever anything happen to them...i will feel so sad..
their hardworking to exchange for our good life indeed should not be forgotten...
i had so many things to tell them actually...
but sometime i just cant open mouth...
maybe this is chinese's style...
we just cant let our self to say out 'i love you' to our parents...
because we too care about our face...
nothing is good lidat...
unlike those westerners...
they say it out every seconds they wanna to say...

i think it time for us to change ba...
say 'i love you' loudly to ur parents before it is too late!!!

20102010

yesterday indeed a special day...
2010-2010...
duno how long ny got 1 date as that...
i m so lazy to count...

a special should have a special event going on right?
too bad...dun have!!!

hmm...
a usual study day for me nia...
wake up so damn early in the morning to go for class....
then go for printing...
then go back room to sleep...

at night...
went for the celebration dinner for yinzi...
hmm..have it at janbo restaurant near south city plaza...
the food there was not bad...
maybe just because too long i din eat dao so 'chinese' d cooking ba...haha...
overally it was a fun dinner...
as all of us just like one big family...
having fun and noise together...
not to 4get...
my table yesterday is the most geng want at game session...
we were the champion...
although we kept bising at there say no fair cause all the song they played for games were olddies!!!!
wakaka....

anyway...
yesterday a special day for me to wish something...
i din wished much...
just hope that can back home faster cause i miss my family...
and hope darr darr will owiz be with me^^

one more thing to add on!!!
today i get a bad news!!!
my exam on the 8th nov is postponed to 22nd nov...
i was so sad...
cause this mean that i need to go back home more late!!!
yer..hate leh!!!
i rather to faster finish it...
sobbsss....

a walk in pasar malam

yesterday..
the 1st night i got the chance to go pasar malam snce i came upm..
1st experience cause i owiz got class till 8pm during mon...
n the pasar malam is only on that day..
so no choice lo...
wait till yesterday ny go lo..

hmm..the pasar malam here is so damn diff with the pasar malam at ktn...
cause here mostly d stalls also sell food wan...
not like ktn..half sell food half sell groceries..

so yesterday most of my journey in pasar malam was carrying food...
cause c dao so many things that i very long no eat liao want...

anyway..try some new things at there also...
1st is the china hamburger...
it was quite nice in some of the flavour...
i like the want with taiwanese sausage...
is so delicious...

then ate fried mushroom also...
hmm...i dun like it cause they put too much flour liao...
asam laksa was ok also...

then we walk on and buy some of the snacks lo...

lastly...my fren say wan try 'chao dao fu'...
wa...listen dao me also sked leh...
know wad...the taste is really very geng lo wen v r near the stall...
seem like we went to a rubbish dump lidat...
then i was paksa by my fren to eat sum...
1st time eat..and it will be the last time i eat also...
cause the taste really like eating rubbish...
i omoz vomitted...
sori la...cause i duno 'xin shang'...
haha...

then bought 'dao fu fa tong yuen' as supper...
it was damn nice...
but i really very full...
so i din finish it...
hehe...

hope to go again next time...

my 1st birthday in upm~

14/10/10...
is my 20th birthday...

1st time i m not celebrating it in my house...
not with my family or best frenzz....
cause i m currently now in upm...
really a not same birthday for me...

yesterday night...
i was inside my room busying copying the physic assignment question to bring over to eva room to discuss...
then i planned go to toilet before i go to their room...
once i get out from my room...
i saw bobo...
feel so pelik cause she suddenly seem so curious whr i go which she usually won do that...
but i just din think dao anything...

i told whr i want go then she say she and wishe also...
she say go together..
then i say ok..but i want go toilet 1st..wait her at staircase...

then we went to eva's room...
wen we open the door...
hmm...
wonder y so dark...
there is no one inside the room...
suddenly....birthday song was sang!!!!

hmm...yuan lai they ady bought a cake to celebrate me and wishe geh birthday earlier...
i was so surprise....
tot that no one will celebrate for me this year...
how know....

really feel so surprise la...
although not wad big celebration...
but is the 1st time i celebrate with them...
need to thanx them so much for arranging this celebration for me...

and many other that wished me happy birthday on fb and fon...
thanx ya...although we were seperated now, u all din 4get my birthday...
love u all so much...

hmm...know wad...i click like and reply those wishes also click dao me hand tired...
haha...but i m very happy to do so...
cause is all come from u all geh heart to wish me...
i appreciate it^^

sushi king bonanza

just come back from sushi king bonanza...
we went the mines d sushi king...
hmm...i was so damn full now...
i ate about 11 sushi leh....
shared with eva want...

hmm...the mines there d sushi dun have many choices la actually...
many i want to eat wan din c they prepared...
but luckily i eat dao the most also quite delicious la...
just the rice duno y very loose...
once take up nia jiu all not in shape liao...

anyway...yesterday i have my pendaftaran kursus for the next semester...
managed to daftar all the subject and time that i wanted...
luckily...
wa...know what??
early in the morning the faculty is ady like a war place liao...
everyone is grabbing the chance to be the earliest want to register their subject...

hmm...it was a smooth process...
but then my next semester...
mostly i got class at 8am...
hmm...i think i have to train myself to slee earlier and wake up early liao...
sob sob...
too bad...
but the time is lidat...
let me pratice 1st la...
hehe...

days with darr darr

meet up with my darr darr during the last weekend is such a great time...
i really so damn miss him leh...
finally i c dao him on that weekend..
he purposely come down to kl just to celebrate my birthday earlier as my birthday is on the study day...

darr darr become thinner liao leh...
so sam tong c dao him lidat...
he also say me thin liao but i din noticed la..
i say he think too mch..
haha...

both of us spent two days togehter so happily leh...
feel so sweet...

on saturday night...
we go for steamboat..
cause darr darr say he long time din eat liao...
hmm..dat night i take so many things give him eat leh...
wan make him fatter...
haha...
i very sui leh..
but he guy mar...eat how many also no prob ler....
hehe...
and we ate so many ice cream also...
especially dere got darr darr's favourite durian ice cream leh...

then the next day we went to sunway pyramid...
shopping the whole day leh...
till both of us d leg also pain liao leh...
haha...
bought t-shirt for darr darr as wad i owe him very long liao want...
then buy some snacks and bread nia...
although din buy dao many things...
the time i spend with him really so happy leh...

around 5 sumtinz we started to go back liao...
but i make dao darr darr not managed to get on his bus back to kampar leh...
so sad...
luckily there is another want later...

hmm..so not she de he go back leh...
miss him so much...
wish to meet him again soon...
i think it will be my study leave during our next meeting...
hehe..
hoping for it^^

food fair dinner

well done to all senior n junior of food tech faculty that involved in the dinner yesterday night!!!
it was a success..
say yeah!!

hmm...one more study week had ended...
today i got pertanian exam...
noe wad...i just spend 10 minutes to finish d question nia...
think i m so geng right???
nope!!!u r wrong...cause i m too tired to continue doing it...
just finish it in advance so that i can go earlier...

2ml finally is the day...
hehe...darr darr is coming kl to find me...
so happy leh...
hmm....i think tonight i sure cant sleep liao...
hehe...wanna meet him so much...
cause i miss him very very much!!!
i din c him for 1 month liao leh...
2ml faster come a!!!

btw...my test two officially ended...
now left over for me is the HE presentation and pertanian Assignment...
gambateh..i noe i can do it wan...
hmm...

k la...
till then...

irresponsible ppl!!!

yiu..the line here rili so suck la...
i cant open my facebook...
duno wad happen...
luckily still can let me come here to fa xie...

hmm..2day just got 2 hours class...
1 hour had finished and 1 more hour is later...
now me still thinking wether to go or not....
cause just go out for 1 hour so damn sien leh...

so fast ady wednesday liao...
now countdown-ing to weekend still left only 3 days...
hmm...feel so excited..cause can c my darr darr liao...
the fon he using i think had run out of battery...
so i contact bu dao him...
miss him so much...

something to comment...
recently duno wad happen to our kolej...
even with fan of speed 5 and the window closed up...
there still can be mosquito biting me!!!
hate la...
few night ady leh...
make me cant sleep well...

some more 2day morning heard my friends say that their room got cockroach tim...
yuckksss....
rili duno those ppl how want...
really wan make dao everyone like living inside the rubbish dump meh???
cant keep their place clean wan wor...
gek sam!!!

anyway...
2ml upm food fair starts....
everyone is welcome to visit us o....
btw...2ml there is a dinner for the launching of food fair...
i m the ajk protocol inside dining hall..
hmm..so 2ml whole day gonna be busy inside the place from morning till night o...
all the best to everyone that is together with me preparing this dinner o...
wish everything will go on smoothly!!!^^

mid valley outings

hmm..one more week had passed ady...
today...as usual is a sunday..
but i a more lovely sunday cause i m not abonden to test and assignment...
hooray!!!
so me and my frenz went to midvalley for shopping...

early morning we dy go...
until we reached mid valley...
wishe ny realised that her purse had dissapeared...
find all the way also dun have...
then bobo accompanied her back to serdang geh ktm station to find...
too bad they still cant find...
so they went back uni after that without joining us...
haiz...too bad they cant join us..this is the 1st time 5 of us can went out together leh...
really angry that ppl that took wishe's purse la!!!

hmm...again left 3 of us...
we went to nando's for our lunch...
so many ppl leh...
but the food there was so nice...
we were licking our hand...haha...joking...

then went for shopping...
this time we were no rushed...
so we slow slow shop...
hmm...so damn many ppl at there leh...
so packed...
managed to buy something la at least...
lol...

back time the ktm was also very packed...
i m like a sardine inside there...
haha...
finally safely back dao uni also la...

hope to go out again o!!!^^
and must be 5 of us!!

"总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有烦恼，像个小孩，他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑 容，好多人都会羡慕他们，然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，更没有能力一个人独处，因为当夜深人静的时候，他不知道一个 人会发生什么事，坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们，想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！所以他们就整天逼自己笑，以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！

他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。 他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久， 他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。

他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。有人说他们是向日葵，是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。离自己的梦境越来越来远，不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复 杂，恐慌、不知所措。只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。因为在他们心里，笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。但其 实不是，他们明白了，心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。

他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。

他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。

他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑 ，请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！ 如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们"

saw this article online...
when i read it...i feel that it sound so alike as me...
i m this kind of ppl actually...

that why sometime i sked to be alone during midnight...
i hope someone to accompany me..to protect me...
and now..there is this someone...
i hope he can always protect me^^

good news

i really like the feeling of blogging so much..
is a place to let me voice out all my unhappiness....
and now is the time i say bout some happy things....

today i have a long chat with darr darr...
i really miss him so much neh...
3 days liao...i din even can msg with him or how..
totally run out of his news...
but now...i finally managed to talk good good with him...
and i noe we can chat 4 a longer time if not his hp going to run out of battery...

talk so much with him...
feel so happy...
cause the understanding for both of us have become even more...
i love this feeling so much...

anyway...now i so much hoping...
hoping for next week to come faster!!^^

finally i get to hear his voice...
but....

maybe i just think too good in a path that nothing gonna went wrong after this..
i failed myself again..
i will never b doing the right thing...
i just hurt the one i love...

suppose it to be a happy day as i finally can contact dao him...
i hope for too much..
now d me totally moodless..
cause i add on the moodiness on him...
i was just trying to help...
maybe i just din use the right way...
i wonder wad hapened??

sorry...
but i really love you so much...
i just too worry about you...
i know i cant help out anything...
but...i do care lots bout you..
dun angry me anymore k???