i m not your maid

yer..you thought i m your maid or what...
order me to do this and that...
who you think you are...

hey...see properly...
i just help you all out of kindness...
that is not my job ok???

you have no right to order me to do any of your job...
cause i have my own too...
i will help if i can...
but not being order this and that by you...

do whatever your job is unless you wanna give half of your money to me...
if not...keep your bull shit mouth shut!!!!

really damn bu suang again...
so irresponsible ppl that i met...
make my mood bad the whole day liao...

if you want my help you can just ask...
please dont ever try to order me again like i m your maid...
if not...you will get something unexpected from me...
dun try to challenge me...
unless you want your 'big reward' to come soon!!!

this is my word to you now...

and i swear!!

sleepless....

is already midnight...
if last time...i should have sleep till damn tight in my sweet bed...

but recently...i just cant help to drag myself onto my bed....
not that i m not tired...
just i cant make my mind to sleep...

even for this week...my sleeping time is more and more late...
compared ti last time...i maybe only stay till such late once in a while...
but now...is everyday!!!!
can you imagine that??

everyday i m telling myself that tonight i want to sleep earlier so i wont feel sleepy during work time...
in the end...i ended up slept for only 6 hours like that...

what happened to me???
i feel that i m to dependent on him dy..
mostly i spend my night hanging fon with him...
till i dun feel wanna sleep...
or sometime waiting him to be free and call me for a good night...

all this and that is because of him...
he is so much important to me...

i love him so much^^

maybe i just should drag myself to bed liao...
if not 2molo i really dunid wake dy...
anyway....i think i really need someone to make me sleep early every night...
who is willing to take up this job???

25.4.2010

so fast it dy approaching end of april...
one quarters of year 2010 had passed...
hmm...many happen la actually in between this period of time...
happy...sad...exciting...memorable...

i seem to grown up...
i learned a lot of things that all of us should always pratise in our life..

no doubt that i m kinda emo and sad for the past few days...
but now...i m ok dy...
i can smile..and even laugh...

smile from inner of my heart...
especially when i m with darr darr...
he really help to cheer up my life much...
whenever i m sad..i wanted to be with him so much...
he wont let me to be sad alone...
he will try any way to make me smile...
really thx him alot this past few days...
even he is not in ktn...

anyway...darr darr now is still in kl er...
he say he will rush back later so that he can pui me 2molo...
so happy that he is so good to me..
hope him has a safe journey o...

god...please bless him....
cause he is my support....
nothing can happen to him want^^

cry

dunno how other will think bout crying...
today i ny know that cry can help me let off all my bad mood...

today after something that happened...
it makes my tears jusr rolled down through my face...
it was so uncontrollable...

i admit that once i started to cry it will be very difficult for me to stop...
i keep crying non-stop...
till i cnt even continue my work...

thx for auntie that comfort me alot...
u really make me calm down...
thx cause u din scold me cause not continuing my work...

after the cry...
i feel so much better...
all the bad mood in me dy dissapeared...

maybe next time if i still get this situation...
i should cry more early to let off it...

hope 2molo will b a better day...

in fact..i m off but i m attending the munsyi exam...
lolxx...
good luck to me^^

and all the bast to all my friends who are taking the exam also....

heart sank...

 am in bad mood this few day..
mood bcm even bad after i heard what he is doing...

not understand y i will like that...
not dun want let him to do like that...
but i just will feel damn not happy...
my heart sank deeply...

some more...there is other problem...
haiz...
y suddenly so many thing pop out??
i just want to let the rest of my time at there happily pass...

really duno why got like that d ppl...
i really hate la!!!!

haiz...
keep silent i think is the best..
maybe just use back the fake face to face ppl again...
if the situation still like that and i cnt change anything...
the most unwanted way will be use..

bu suang!!! heng!!!

really so beh song leh..heng!!!

y got like that d ppl want...
8 dao...everything also want say a part...
some more still ban till very clever like that...

yala yala...
me like this la..me like that la...
you taught you very geng meh??

you taught you are fortune teller a??
this world nothing is definitely want...
maybe last time thing happen is cause of that but not mean that this time also will cause of that...

no one in this world dare to say for sure...
who you think you are to say that???

ta ma de!!!
damn angry a!!!

hate this feeling!!!!

still damn not in mood now...haiz...
i also duno what happened to me...

there is this something in my heart that make me cant smile sincerely out frm my heart....
i really duno what is that stupid thing that make my mood till like that...

duno how to relief this feeling...
tried dy..not work also...
even just now go out and hang kai with sis at ecm...

maybe everyone just see me like normal time...
but this is just what i show...
my heart is not like that...

i hate that...
i want to get rid of this feeling!!!
damn it!!!!

come come come...
find some happy things to tell me...

rubbish post

again is my off day...
but somehow i seem to loss the excitement as compared to last time...

i just want to stay at house and relax leh...
maybe i m really too tired liao...
tired of everything...

blogging...blogging and blogging...
if u din mean it sincerely dun post it at blog...
blog is a place to express something u think...
if you din think so...dun post...
or maybe just i think too much ady...

haiz...moody...
i need someone to understand my feeling...
i need a shoulder...
i need an ear too...

i miss darr darr right now...
hmm...but i heard him say this morning that he is going to kl again...
for sure he is going to be busy right there.....
duno la...

*end!!!*

sori....i just post a bunch of rubbish in this post...
cause my feeling is mess up...
just crapping for nothing!!!
bla bla bla....

weird feeling

sometime really dunno want how to express my feeling here...
there is something not so easy to voice out and describe it...

time flies...
things have change...
i am trying to get use of it..
cause i know i will face this type of thing in future also...

recently...
my work bcm quite busy...
undeniable..i have lesser time to think bout other things...
is it a good thing to me???
i cant really confirm about it...

just...hmm...
i cant tell what...
there is just a weird feeling in my heart now...
i cant figure out is about what...

do anyone can help me to check it out???

leg pain dao!!!

it has been ages since the last time i dance for performance...
today i try to learn back the dance...

hmm...i din forget it much...
and i tought i can handle it well...
how know the effect just come now...

my leg are so damn pain leh...
the muscle like have been over-stretched...
till i want to sit or walk also will feel that the muscle is pulling...
suffering la...

cham dao...
but i still need to practise it continuously...
there is still 1 month left nia...

gambateh!!!^^